Inamin ni Tom Rodriguez na dumating siya sa point na naisip niyang pagtangkaan ang kanyang buhay dahil sa matitinding pagsubok na kinaharap.

Sa kanyang panayam kay Boy Abunda, ibinahagi ng aktor ang madilim na bahagi ng kanyang buhay habang nasa Amerika siya.

Matatandaan na taong 2022 nang magtungo si Tom sa US matapos ang kontrobersyal na hiwalayan nila ni Carla Abellana.

Mahigit dalawang taon din siyang nanirahan doon with his family. Bumalik siya sa Pilipinas Enero ng taong ito.

Ayon sa aktor, talagang napakadilim ng mundo niya noong mga panahong iyon.

“I don’t know if I’m allowed to say but there were times when it was really dark. I thought I was gonna do something to myself that’s irreversible,” aniya.

Paglilinaw ng host na si Boy, “Sorry, dumaan ka sa stage na you almost contemplated dying by suicide?”

Sagot ni Tom, “I was there. And a moment that flashed in my mind was, ‘What would my nephews think if they go through hardships? If they go through a hard time?’

“’Oh, Tito Tom was able to this, I can do it, too.’ And I thought I owe them more than that.

“And now I owe my younger self that you can go through the hardest unos, bagyo, kahit ano ang dumaan sa buhay mo, as long as you find that integrity within yourself again.

“You build a trust within yourself and love for yourself and those who matter the most to you, kayang-kaya mo pa rin,” pahayag ni Tom.

Maraming beses na rin umano niyang iniyakan ang mga problema lalo na nga kapag nakikita niyang nag-aalala ang kanyang ina.

“There was a time nagtatago ako. I would hide away, until you go through the dark night of the soul, and then you’re able to face your loved ones, face yourself in the mirror, face your family and then you, you start opening the conversation,” sabi pa niya.

“Whatever happened in my life, I was also complacent in it, and I’ve taken accountability and responsibility for that, and lahat kayo, may kanya-kanyang battles. Kaya I wouldn’t say it’s just me. It happens to everyone.

“You can go through the hardest as long as you find that integrity within yourself again, that trust, that love for yourself again and those who matter the most to you,” he said.

Pero sa kabila ng kanyang pinagdaraanan ay mas pinili ng aktor na bumangon muli nang unti-unti.

“Pinakamalaking lesson was kinailangan kong matutunan kung paano pagdaanan lahat ng ingay sa buhay na kalmado lang.

“Hindi ko kayang bumagsak lahat. I started… when other people say na starting from zero, at the time, I was like starting at the negative ‘coz a lot of the things that I thought meant a lot to me, disappeared.

“And then, you realized in that lowest moment, you have a lot to be grateful pala. You have a lot to be thankful for,” saad ng aktor.