
Dina kinuwestiyon ang Diyos sa pagkamatay ng mister
Matapos ang pagpanaw ng asawang si Deogracias Victor “DV” Savellano last January 7, sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon ay nagpahayag si Dina Bonnevie ng kanyang saloobin at nararamdaman.
Sa mahabang post ng aktres sa Instagram, dama ang sakit na nararamdaman niya sa pagyao ng mister. Ikinuwento niya na nasaksihan niya mismo nang mawalan ng hininga ang asawa.
“Yesterday I turned 63. A follower of Christ, a loving wife to my husband, a step mother to five kids, a mother of 2, a grandmother to 9, and now a WIDOW.
“I pondered upon the recent events in my life… starting the year with the death of my husband which was not only the most painful experience in my life, but the most traumatic! Watching my husband struggle for dear life and helplessly die in front of me, is one thing I wish no one would ever experience,” pahayag ni Miss D.
Kinuwestiyon ng aktres kung bakit si DV pa ang kinuha at hindi siya.
“I wondered why him and not me. My husband was a good person who lived a Christ centered life, was generous, was a true and devoted public servant and a visionary who created projects to alleviate the lives of the poor, the aged, the farmers, the fishermen and the artisans.
“He was proud to be an Ilocano and did almost everything in his power to promote his town, his district, and finally his country. He had so much more to do and contribute to his country and province. The immensity of people who came to his wake and condoled with me, and shared their stories of DV with me, made me realize how many lives he has touched and how much he has achieved in his lifetime. It was far beyond the number of people I have probably touched in my life! I would like to thank all the people who gave their last respects to my dear husband and condoled with us,” aniya.
Inamin din ng aktres na humihingi siya ng paliwanag kay Lord at para raw siyang ‘at a loss’ ngayong wala na ang mister.
“So why then did I have to be left behind? What did God want me to do, and where did He want me to be? Couldn’t I still fulfill my purpose with my husband? What did I still have to do without a spouse?
“I looked up to God in prayer, at the same time demanding a fair explanation. I was hurt, felt betrayed, angry, and lost in my misery. I thought this day, my birthday is what I dreaded… my first bday without my husband and nothing to celebrate,” saad niya.
Ibinahagi rin ng aktres ang naging ganap sa first birthday niya after her husband’s death at ipinahayag ang pangungulila sa mister sa ganitong okasyon.
“I was sad that I was going to celebrate the eve of my bday alone unlike the usual ‘salubong’, but God provided a lunch get together with my husband’s Mom and sisters and we had hefty servings of home cooked Filipino food whipped up by my sisters-in-law. The eve of my bday, my step children invited me to a steak and lamb dinner like we usually do, when DV was alive. We bonded and shared stories and I didn’t feel alone at all, except, when I had to blow the bday candle.
“The morning of my bday, I was crying, hoping to see the usual tulips my husband would wake me up to; but God provided me a wonderful bouquet of orchids from Helen Gamboa, an ex sister-in-law I haven’t seen or spoken to in a long time.
“I was missing my husband looking over my shoulder when I usually cooked lunch for my bday and thought this was going to be a first without him; but God provided joy when I spent lunch with my son’s family and my sister’s family and we ate delicious fresh seafood.
“We drove to my son’s house to just spend the day with his family and I thought, DV won’t be singing for me today; but God made me listen to exceptional piano renditions by my grandsons. They were so good that it brought tears to my eyes. I am so blessed and proud of them! I spent the afternoon and evening talking to them, playing with my youngest grandson, hugging him and kissing him and I felt comfort with him in my arms… felt tired and weary crying since the 7th of January till today.
“I thought it had been a long time since I had a good massage with my hubby. I cried again triggered by painful memories. Then suddenly my sister who owned a spa sent her masseuse to relax me! I didn’t even verbalize my thoughts, but God provided once again for me. I wondered, was God listening to me like a direct line on the phone talking to me? My nephew brought more flowers when he visited me at my son’s house and comforted in between my bouts of weeping.
“Then finally my grandchildren gave me letters just when I was about to retire. Reading those comforting and assuring letters of love brought not only tears to my eyes, but a realization of how ungrateful I was to question God and focus on my loss and not notice the many little miracles and provisions He provided along the way,” mahabang kwento ni Dina.
Sa huli ay sinabi rin ng aktres ang pagsisisi niya na humingi siya ng explanation kay Lord.
“It is indeed true that ‘the truth usually comes from the mouth of babes!’ Now I stand grateful and sorry for asking God to explain matters to me.
“I am reminded of my faith in Him that should remain unwavering, despite life’s challenges. I am grateful for having thoughtful sisters-in-law, loving sisters, understanding step children, caring children and loving grand children.
“God takes care of widows, he never leaves those who abide in Him. I thank Him for all his blessings and wait on His directions, I let go and let God!” pagtatapos ng aktres.